Sometimes you just have to get away.
I've been working from home for the past 3 years. However, before rolling out of bed to work from my home office, I used to work in the office with my teammates. I woke up early in the morning and escaped the thoughts of the monotonous work day by quickly thinking about something else. When my husband and I woke our kids up, almost immediately they were at each other's throats because they both despised waking up at 6:30 A.M. I didn't blame them because I didn't always want to wake up early either.
However, their bickering attempted to take me out of my peaceful self.
I tried to mediate while thinking, "we just need to make it to the car and in 5 minutes I'll be at work". I looked forward to work being my escape and my vacation from the unnecessary, early A.M. arguments. We pulled up to my job, I kissed everyone goodbye, walked into the building and then off to my cubicle I went. Ahh...no more fighting, no more mediating.
Tired of the Box
After 2 hours of being at work, I started to settle in and then it hit me, "I'm ready to go home!". I felt trapped in that cubicle. I literally felt as if I was in a box. The drama with co-workers and the repetitive work routine caused me to yawn and take deep breaths all day. I escaped my surroundings by listening to Joyce Meyer and anyone else that would help me grow spiritually. However, around 3:00 pm, I started watching the clock like a hawk. Of course time goes by really slow when you're watching it. I just couldn't wait until 4:30 pm so I could get out of that place and chill with my family.
I realized that my problem was not my surroundings at work or my sons.
I was lacking internal peace. The constant feeling of "I have to get out of here" was a clear indication that God's peace was not ruling and reigning in my heart. The Bible says in Philippians 4:6-7, "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus".
What are you escaping from and then to? Is it work? Is it sex? Is it drugs or alcohol? Unfruitful relationships? A hobby? Having a victim mentality and blaming others for your shortcomings? Bad thoughts because of your insecurities? I challenge and encourage you to escape your anxiety, uncertainty, heartaches, or insecurities through prayer and meditation. Get into your quiet space and commune with God. Tap into the truth of the source of your lack of peace and be courageous enough to pursue the peace you deserve.